fuck that shit pisses me off .
not everythings a damn joke .
shut your fucking mouth .
When I see my family after a long time
and they’re all like, “Wow! You’ve grown!”
and i’m just like
“Nigga was i supposed to shrink?!”
When you hear a old song on the radio…
At first you’re like:I remember this!
As the song goes on, you’re like: I forgot how much I loved this song!
Then you start boppin to it like: THIS IS MY SHIT!
Then the song is in your head all day and you cant stop dancing to it, like:
Lost in this Lifetime..
I dont know what to do with myself.. i dont know what to say , where to go , who to turn to . I feel so stupid all the time..i cant remember anything and its not fair now , i cant remember what i wanna remember . i have so much on my mind i dont know how to explain myself , and that makes me feeel even more stupid.. i show nothing , no emotion towards any of this . i cant , i dont know how i guess ; i have the slowest , painful pain considering its hitting me slowly the fact that shes gone , and i miss her like i never thought i would.. its not fair.. shes showing everyone else that shes still there somehow except me ; i wanna see her face , hear her voice , i wanna know that shes freaking still HERE . but shes not and i cant accept it . i dont know how to express what i feel . i have no energy to put any effort into anything to do . i feel like giving up but i know that wont do anything but make things harder ; im so confused in my life right now and its the worst feeling ever . i dont know what to do or think about anything that comes my way anymore . i feel so clueless in life . i feel like everythings crashing down at once and i dont know what part to handle first . i feel like no one will ever understand what its like to be in my shoes . i keep so much hidden so much and im always told that its not good to do that..but i cant help it ; i wanna just run , far far away where no one will find me and just sit there , by myself . i dont wanna deal with anything i dont wanna deal with school people ANYTHNIG . i just wanna get this anger out so bad but i dont know how , i just wanna hit something or scream or just , ugh i dont even know.. i dont wanna deal with the crap that goes onn , i dont wanna cry anymore.. i dont know how to even end this blog .
